never walk alone.

I have been living on my own for 8 months now. Although I am coping well, it seems that something has been creeping up into my thoughts lately.

Sometimes, when I am at home, there is nothing much I can do. I mean other than my room chores(cos I rent only the room and not the house), I look around my room and astonishingly, I only see a cupboard, a place to hang my clothes, boxes, a TV set, a dressing table, a small table and a CD player cum radio. I can't really watch tv clearly as the reception sucks, my CD player isn't working properly. So for entertainment purposes, I only have the radio to turn to. And we know radio don't play our favourite songs everyday.

As much as I want to revamp my room, here are the conditions why I can't:
1) Technically it is not my room.
2) Since I'm paying for my own room, why should I enhanced it and make it look better, then when I move out, they'll benefit from it?
3) Mei yo cian leiiiii...

I used to come home to the comforts of a PS2, a DVD player, a laptop and a Starhub Cable TV. But not now. I only see four walls around me when I reach home. Haha. Something which bothers me in a way. I can't even watch TV programmes of my own choice in the hall when the kids or my aunt and uncle are watching TV. PS2 and DVD player was taken by my brother when he got married and moved to Sembawang since October and has been there ever since. Thoughts of taking me in into their house was delayed as his in-laws have not budged from the house, as promised they would, by the end of last year. Now, it has been delayed to the end of this year. And when its nearing end of this year, it'll be postponed again to the end of next year and the cycle goes on.

I mean I know I don't have the rights to complain. But what choice do I have? Stay with my dad in JB? Going in and out of JB will be freaking tiring. Especially without a transport of my own. Stay with my sis and mum in Tampines? This might be a lame excuse but living in the East will seem foreign to me already. And I don't feel comfortable living there. So yeap.

On a lighter note, I think I will have to wake up earlier than usual for Fri, Saturday and Sunday.(Lighter note kebabai....)

Friday
Have to reach Northlight School at 8am for their CPR 3A Programme. And where is that school? Paya Lebar.(!!!)

Saturday
Have to reach office at 6.45am for Flag Day! What the hell! 6.45am?!

Sunday
Most probably meeting time for Sentosa trip is 9.30am. That's early too.

Monday
I'm on leave! Part ni gerek......Haha....

Ok on Saturday, Fana has a small makan2 session. Hopefully I can make it around 7.30pm. I wanna taste her cooking!(Even if its maggi goreng or something...Hehe..).

Conclusion:
Packed schedule for me this coming weekend. Yikes!

And somebody's turning 22 soon. =)

Hidanilson Out. . .