never walk alone.

Those people who knew me since my primary school days until sec 2, will know that I was a fat kid then.
But since then I lost weight.
Alot of weight in fact.
At one point of time, I nearly lost 20kg.
I could be the spokesperson for Marie France Bodyline if only I lost weight at a slightly mature age.
Now that limelight of mine has been stolen away by a certain ex Miss Malaysia, Andrea Fonseka.
Damn.
Haha.

The reason I'm storytelling about this moment in life is because I realised something during my Hari Raya trip with my family on the first day that brings abit of significance to my life.
You see, every year since I lost weight in 2001, my secondary family members keep saying, "Ehhhh...kurus nye kau yat...ape kau dah buat?Bile kau lose weight?".

Haha.
Yea those questions were asked by the makchicks of cos.
Ooops I mean makciks.

And after those remarks, they added by saying. "Baguslah kalau dah kurus, kan lawa sikit..."
Lawa??
Handsome lah makcik......
Lol.
And yea they are quite kasar when they refer me as "kau".

Those remarks were good.

Whats not good is this, "Tapi kalau kurus sangat pun tak lawa. Nak kene sedang2 aje."
Which reminds me of that dangdut song, "Yang sedang2 saja....".
Haha.
Alah makcik, kurus pun salah, gemuk pun salah.
But actually, she does makes sense.
When I look into the mirror, ~~naked~~ half-naked, I relised I was a bit too thin.
My neck was like a loch-ness monster.
My face was very chengkung.(is that how u spell it in Malay?Haha.)
And I could see the ~~abs~~ ribcage clearly.

And so I decided to........

No.
Not to be fat again.
I just decided to eat abit more and exercise at the same time.
That is called healthy diet.
Haha.
And now here I am, being what I am and what I have become.

After this long story, what I'm trying to say is that......

This year, the family didn't comment on me about being thin anymore.

Haha.
Suspense right?

Ku mencintaimu, lebih dari apapun
Meskipun tiada satu orang pun yang tahu
Ku mencintaimu, sedalam-dalam hatiku
Meskipun engkau hanya kekasih gelapku...

Ku tahu ku takkan selalu ada untukmu
Disaat engkau merindukan diriku
Ku tahu ku takkan bisa memberikanmu waktu
Yang panjang dalam hidupku

Yakinlah bahwa engkau adalah cintaku
Yang ku cari selama ini dalam hidupku
Dan hanya padamu ku berikan sisa cintaku
Yang panjang dalam hidupku...

Kekasih Gelapku - Ungu

Hidanilson Out.