never walk alone.

My friends wrote entries about their grandmas recently and how I wished my grandma is staying with me or staying somewhere near me. How I wish could treasure my grandma like my friends treasure theirs.

The thing is, both of my paternal grandmothers have passed away. One of my paternal grandmother is my father's stepmother who took care of me since I was born. And I could not repay their kindness physically. I can only repay them mentally; by praying for them mainly everyday. Whats more is since the separation of my parents I could rarely spend time with my maternal grandmother. The only time I can meet her or maybe spend time with her is during the public holidays when there will be family gatherings. But I don't really treat it as spending time with my grandma because there are so many things to catch up with my cousins and my uncles and aunties. And just by the snap of my fingers, my time with them will be up.

I really envy those of my friends who could spend their time with their grandmother alone. Frankly speaking, I have never went out with her alone. Sometimes, I want to have that feeling of going out with my grandmother alone. I want to have that special feeling. I want to rekindle the moments. But wait, how to rekindle the moments when I didn't even spend time with her alone. Haiz...

So, please treasure your grandmas. I know sometime they can be a pain in the neck but it is all for our own good. They always scold us here and there but the truth is they do that because they love us and they don't want us to go astray. I miss all my grandmothers so much. Thanks for taking care of me all these years. It must have been tough on you.

And as I'm typing this, I miss my special someone too. Take care of yourself and I'm beginning to become worried because you have not replied any of my sms. Enjoy yourself ya.

Sometimes we realise it is all too late just as you are about to spend time with your loved ones.

Hidanilson Out...